Exhausted but can’t sleep…day 2.

I know this usually means I have over exerted myself.  I am totally exhausted, but I can’t get myself to fall asleep.  I had the same problem last night.  I am also hungry, but I just ate a little yogurt, so hopefully that will help.  I was hoping last night was due to too much sleep over the weekend, but now I think it was pushing myself too hard at the gym.  Now, tonight same thing.  I felt really tired after work, but went to the gym anyway and felt awesome!!!  Then, came home, ate, showered, tried to settle down and go to sleep about 9 p.m.  Its now 11 p.m., and I am blogging.  Tomorrow I teach Spinning, so I can’t take a day off from working out.  Thursday is BP and spinning.  Friday may be my first chance to take a day off.  I am going to listen to Leigh Peele’s podcast….maybe she can put me to sleep.  Not because she is boring, mind you!!!  She has a calming voice.  (Leigh, I hope you are reading this.)

Seriously, if you haven’t heard of Leigh Peele, look her up.  I think she is the smartest fitness person in the business today.  See her in my blogroll.

Okay, going back to bed to try to fall asleep.  I hope the rest of you are having sweet dreams!!!


Glorious day in the neighborhood.

Today is sunny and beautiful…almost like spring!  Its 46 degrees, so I can’t say its warm…but warmer than last week!

I have today off, and had planned to lounge around the house, but ended up teaching Body Pump for a friend who had sick kids.  I can say that I did NOT want to do it, but I am so glad I did!  I feel much more alive than I have the past few days.  After my funk last week, I ran outside on Saturday, but paid for it yesterday by staying in bed all day.  I was so sleepy, I felt like I was on drugs or something.  But, today Body Pump got me out of my funk, and now I am ready to tackle the house and take the dog for a run.

This weekend was a bust as far as eating goes.  I know I was way over my calories both Saturday and Sunday.  However, no crying over spilt beer….so I am back on track today and hope to make up for the overture by working out more.  Today I have BP and running, tomorrow I have Zumba and BP again.  Wednesday Spinning, Thursday BP.  That is the most working out I have done in a while.

This weekend, no drinking or over eating.  When I drink, I over eat or make bad choices….so I will cut out the drinking and that should help.  Besides, alcohol has 7 calories per gram…..more than carbs or protein, almost as much as fat.  Plus, your body has to burn the alcohol first, so it disrupts the fat burn.

Enjoy this wonderful Martin Luther King Jr. Day!!!!

Feeling better

weight 184.6 lbs


I am feeling better today, thanks to a lot of sleep.  I think I was fighting off something.  My sinuses are acting up, so that was probably the cause.  Today I am going outside to run….its finally warmed up here.  I weighed yesterday and am down another 1.4 lbs.  I also put the jeans back on….still not a pretty sight to see.  I think those jeans are better than any scale.  There is something about putting on clothes that used to fit you that is  eye opening.  The scale is just a number, abstract.  Clothes are real, concrete, and have memories attached.  On the upside, I can get them almost all the way up, and walk around in them.  I just can’t fasten them.

Is this what losing weight feels like?

I have heard that you feel bad while losing weight.  Leigh Peele says that fat loss is actually not good for your body, the process anyway.  Being in a constant deficit puts a strain on your system.  I don’t know if that is what I am experiencing or if I am just coming down with something.  Since I started my deficit, I have had acne, sinus issues, and now I feel tired and irritable.

I rocked out in Spin last night, but immediately after, I felt nauseous.  Tonight, I teach Body Pump, so we’ll see how I feel after that.  If I am sick, I will know tomorrow.  Body Pump takes so much out of me that sickness will definitely show up if its there.

Good news is I haven’t been hungry, so I have been able to stick to my calorie allowance for the day.  🙂  Silver lining.


Today I am very tired.  It hit me all at once, after lunch.  All of the sudden, I felt like I hit the wall, like I could have laid down under the conference table at work and just gone to sleep.  I tried breathing in some cold air to wake up, but still feel tired.  Now I have to go teach a spin class.  I usually love teaching spin, but don’t feel I have the energy for it.  However, it is too late to call a sub, so off to the gym I go.  Maybe spinning will give me energy, instead of making me more tired.

Posting my Fat Picture

Not just another New Years Resolution!!!!

Starting point, ground zero

Hello, and welcome to my first blog for 40by40!  I am not totally new to the blogging thing, but this is my first jump into a public blog for all the world to see.  What better way to get some accountability and some humor into my life!!!  Like many of you, I have set a goal for this year to lose weight.  Not just any goal, though.  I will turn 40 this time next year, 2011….and I want to lose 40 lbs by the time I turn 40.  That is 3.3 lbs per month, which is attainable, yet challenging for me.  A little about me….

Without revealing ALL the details, I am a 39-year-old female who has struggled with my weight most of my life.  I was never what you would call fat or obese as a child, but I have always carried extra weight.  I have never been “little, tiny, and cute”…at least not since the age of 5.  As I hit my 30s, I started carrying even more extra baggage, about 60 lbs extra.  In the past year and a half, I have made some progress, dropping about 20 lbs.  However, I figure this is the year to make it the rest of the way.  I am not getting any younger, and the numbers seem to match up….so 40by40 was born!!!

The ultimate accountability is posting your fat picture for all to see.  I  posted a picture of me in my goal jeans.  I bought these jeans a few years back, when I was doing the “low carb” thing….and was at my skinniest for my 30s.  They are the low rider type, size 14.  I know that still sounds big….but they are really probably a 12.  Right now, I wear between a 14 and 16, depending on brand.  My goal is to make these jeans too big for me!!!

I plan to use this blog to document my progress, and to bring some humor to the situation that I know is not going to be funny most of the time.  I started back on “the wagon” this week, and I am already hungry.  I get cranky when I’m hungry, so watch out!